Alexis Rivera_Ethno_Draft Two

I walked into the bathroom, and my cousin was already inside the shower. This was routine; I was only about eight years old, and not yet able to fully comprehend the sexualization of naked bodies. Showering with my cousin Amanda was normal – in fact, it was a fun childhood experience. Playing with dolls in the bathtub, talking in the shower, creating fake beards and crazy hair with the soapy water. But it had been a while since we had showered together, and something was different. She is older than me, about six years older than me, and her body was changing and shifting in ways that mine was not. I was confused and anxious as I looked in on her through the glass. Hair had grown in places where there hadn’t been any before, and there were hills and valleys across her body where things used to be flat.

Later, I asked my mom what had happened. What was different? Was my body going to do the same things that Amanda’s had? My mom answered calmly, explaining that Amanda was becoming a woman, and indeed, I too would go through similar changes in the future. Becoming a woman? What does that mean? What does it mean to be a woman? And now I ask, what does it mean to be a woman in the 21^st century?

Claire Heuchan is a self-described Black radical feminist and is the author of the blog Sister Outrider. She won the Best Blog category for the 2016 Write to End Violence Against Women Awards and was shortlisted for the Emma Humphreys Memorial Prize.

Her blog details a five-part series on sex, gender, and sexuality. Her blog post entitled “Binary or Spectrum, Gender is a Hierarchy,” is intriguing, and I discovered it simply through happenstance. In this piece, she argues that it matters little if gender is understood in terms of a binary between males and females or as a spectrum with a multitude of possible gender identities: gender is still a socially constructed concept, and only serves to grant one group of people (namely, men) dominion over a subordinate counterpart (evidently, women). Heuchan argues that when completely broken down and examined, gender is why women who have been abused or raped get the brunt of the blame, since “she was asking for it” “she shouldn’t have been walking alone at night in an unsafe part of town,” or “she must have provoked him in some way.” Gender is why women are condemned for their sexuality, why only men are allowed to discuss pornography and masturbation, while women are labeled “sluts” if they allow men sexual access to their bodies. And because people are gendered even before they’re born, it becomes impossible to “opt out” of the oppression so inherent in society.

Amanda is now 28 years old, with a daughter of her own turning one in just a few weeks, and has another on the way. Before the birth of my second cousin, Amanda was given two baby showers, and threw a “gender reveal” party. This is not uncommon; in fact, this type of party seems like a trend that an increasing number of expectant mothers are adhering to. She had two different types of punch side-by-side, one blue and one pink. She had M&Ms with either “Nuts” or “No Nuts,” more commonly stated as “Peanut M&Ms” and “Plain M&Ms.” Her closest friend made cupcakes with pink and blue icing inside, and we were all able to guess the sex of the baby on paper ballots before the actual reveal. The guests were called outside into the backyard when the moment was right, and Amanda and her husband stood together with a giant black balloon in their hands, ready to pop it. The countdown began, and soon enough pink confetti was swirling toward the ground as her guests squealed in delight.